April has been a tough month....

Only one more hour until it is over...Come onnnnnnnn May!And when I say "tough" I mean really tough.

So, get comfortable. I will fill you in.

April started off well enough. My Scrapbook room was on its way and my birthday this month. How bad could it be?

Well, it go bad. I was running late one afternoon picking up the kids from the bus stop. I was rushing. While I was loading Quinn up in the car, I saw that the dogs had gotten into a trash can. I quickly pick it up. Then got in my car. Forgot my keys. Ran into the house. Came back. Started my car. Messed with my Ipod then put it in reverse.

I hit something. I heard a yelp. I screamed "no no no!". Ran out of my car and saw my Ruby under my car. I started to cry. I pulled her out. One of her legs was limp. I knew it had to be broken.

I ran into the house calling for my brother. I told him I had backed over Ruby and needed to take her to the vet. Asked him if he could pick up the twins. I ran into the house. Called my vet. They were closed. Called the ER Vet, got Ruby in the car and off I went. I called James while I was driving down there. Voice Mail. I was hysterical. My little Ruby. Sweet Ruby. I prayed she would be ok. I did not know where I hit her. I did not know if she had internal bleeding. I was so scared and so guilt ridden.

Got to the ER Vet. They took an x-ray and said she had a twisted fracture in her femur and would need surgery. But they could not do it. I had to leave her there overnight and pick her up at 6 am the next morning to get her to the vet who could do it (90 minutes from my house). Not a problem. I knew I would do anything for her.

Got home. Cried. Cried some more. Our dogs are our family. The guilt I felt was unmeasurable. I did not get much sleep that night.

So, the next morning I packed Quinn in the car and off we went at 6 am. We picked up Ruby and drove the the other Vet. When we got there, they told me that the break was more complicated than what the other vet told me. Multiple fractures. Very Serious. And one more thing. They could not do it. They said my best bet was to go to Virginia Tech and have their specialists do it.

I asked what were my options. This is what they are:

1. VA Tech
2. Amputation
3. Put her down

Well, #3 was not an option. And #2 wasn't either. I did this to her. I needed to do whatever I could to fix it.

My decision was made. I asked how far VA Tech was. It was 3 hours south of them. I started to panic. I was not prepared for this long trip. I did not pack enough bottles or diapers for Quinn. I could not stop to get the things I needed because I had an injured dog in my car. So, I hoped Quinn would sleep for the ride down there and I would pick the items I needed for him once I dropped off Ruby. Quinn was sweet enough to do that for me.

I got down the VT and they took Ruby in. The doctors there told me they needed to do x-rays and a blood work. It would take 40 minutes. At this time, Quinn was getting hungry. I asked them if I could go to the grocery store (2 miles away) and pick up things for the baby. They told me "no, you cannot leave" At that moment I was getting irritated. I mean I drove 3 hours to get to them with a 3 month old baby. What did they think I was going to do? Just leave her there and and not come back? Ugh! Anyway, I waited. And waited. Poor Quinn. I felt like the worst mommy ever@

Well, they looked at the x-rays and they told me there would be 2 plates they would try to put on her femur and metal rods. I did not really understand. I just wanted her leg to be fixed. That is all. I told them to do whatever they could to help her. The surgery would be tomorrow. I thanked them and walked to the car.

Since they had Ruby settled in and we left to go home. now, Quinn had been a trooper. Not really fussy. But then he hit the wall. You would too if you had spent 8 hours in a car seat on a warm day sweating your diaper off.

First stop grocery store. Bought diapers, formula and a couple other things for our trip home. I am still a wreck. Quinn is a wreck. I am not looking forward to the ride home.

I stopped 6 times on the way home. Quinn was done with the whole car seat thing. So, I had to find department stores or malls, so I could take him out and walk him around. Did I mention i did not have my stroller either? Excellent.

needless to say. The trip home took longer than the trip down. We got home @ 8:30 pm. 14 1/2 hours on the road. Quinn and I were exhausted. We both went straight to bed. He slept like a rack. I on the other hand did not.

The next day came. The doctors at VT were going to call during the surgery to give me updates. But by 11 am, I heard nothing. I was freaking out a bit. I called them and the person on the phone told me that they Ruby was in surgery and had been for about 2 hours. He would check with the doctors and have someone call me back.

30 minutes later they called. Bad news. They had tried everything but the plates would not hold. James and I had to make a decision. We were back to option #2 and #3. Remember what we said about option #3? Well, #3 was still NOT an option for us. So, her leg would be amputated.

They called after the surgery and then next 4 days. They said she was doing really good. Walked on the three legs the day after the surgery. They were amazed. I wasn't. That was my Ruby-girl. Stubborn and full of spunk.

I picked her up the following Monday. It was the longest drive. I wanted Ruby home but was feeling so much emotion. Knowing that Ruby would not look the same. That she would not be able to adjust. And that she would be different towards me.

When I walked into VT and they brought her out, I stifled a cry. My poor Ruby. Ruby was whimpering. I thought at first that she was in pain. Then i saw it. Her tail wagging. And she was pulling the doctor down the hallway trying to get to me.

When she got to me, I sat on the floor and gave her a big hug. Saying "I am so sorry Ruby" over and over again. She replied back to me with lots of doggie kisses.

Then we went home.

Her incision has healed up well and the staples were taken out last week. She was getting around good on her 3 legs and I have seen her running now and then.

I am typing this all down now 3 weeks after this all happened and it still brings me to tears. I hate that I did this to her and I could not fix it. If you knew Ruby, you would see how full of life she is. And I feel so guilty about all this. She loved to run and jump. And people tell me that she will again. That it just takes time. But it does not subside the guilt I feel inside.

I keep replaying that day in my driveway. Why didn't I walk behind the car like I normally did every day? Why was she laying behind my car? Why didn't I know she was outside? So many "whys" and "what ifs."

But she was doing well and she was alive. I was optimistic for the first tme since the accident.

But we have had a set back. Since she only has 3 legs, she puts more pressure on the elbow of her remaining leg. And that pad that is on the elbow has gotten infected. There is now a hole in her pad and we are now packing it with gauze. It looks pretty bad and Ruby does not like the bandage on her. She goes off and hides and takes it off. It is not that difficult because it is at an awkward place. So, I have to keep an eye on her. This has to heal. I cannot risk it getting badly infected. I cannot imagine what we would do if that happened.

And I can't. I will be positive. I have to be.

My birthday was a blipp that went by.Maybe I should be grateful that I did not have time to realize that I turned 38. ha haa...

So, that is it. That is what I have been doing for the month of April. Taking care of Ruby along with my normal day routines. It has been hard. But things will be better. May will be better.

Come on May!

And look at that....it is 1 minute past midnight.

Buh bye nasty April...I will not miss you

P.S. I will post other things I did this month but I think this is enough for now. I am sorry I have been MIA (again) but I hope you can understand why now.

Another Day...

and the basement has been gutted. I worked on it for 2 days and it is definitely cleaner. The best part? No run ins with any snakes! HOORAY! haha

Even called the Junk Be Gone guy to haul out a lot of trash for me. I would have done it but I could not budge the old washer and dryer. Trust me I tried.

I have done my part in this little endeavor. Now I have to stay on my husband and my brother to finish hanging the drywall. Then I paint and put in the flooring.

I think this time it will get done. James and I made the mistake of trying to finish the entire basement at once. It was daunting. I believe doing it in small steps. Small projects that can be completed will get it done faster. I have this problem. I want it all done NOW! I am not a patient person when it comes to home projects. I know. SHOCKER right? ha ha

So, this has been a test for me. I have told myself that this will take a year to complete my new scrapbook room. I have to save money up for each step. Flooring. Then Cabinets.

But one thing I am not waiting for is the desk. I wanted the Pottery Barn craft table, but it is so expensive. Even with my birthday in April, I cannot rationalize spending that much money. I tried though. LOL

One of my friends told me about the craft table at Target. It is more than half off the Pottery Barn table. And that is the one I am gifting myself for my Birthday. YAY! I will be getting that before the walls will be painted. A girls got to do what a girl's got to do. Right?

I will share pictures of my room so you can see the progress.

And I know I need to get more pictures of Quinn on here. I am such a bad scrapper. No new pics. Ugggh. Will be working on that. And I promise I will get pictures of Quinn in that awesome Tony Stewart Stroller that Dawn gave me.

Dawn, I will call you soon. I miss our chats.

Ok it is 1 am. Need to get to bed. Another busy week ahead. Will be gutting out my room. Cleaning house. There is a Scrapbook Yard Sale at the end of April and I plan on getting in on the action. Getting rid of the stuff I have been hoarding and the things I do not think I will use.

Goodnight and see ya soon.

Yes, I am back!

I know I have been MIA. March has been a crazy month and April is looking like much the same.

I have been doing my DT projects and teaching. The crop with Crops Plus was wonderful. The classes were a success and the people I met are just amazing people. I could not have asked for a better group of women. Thank you DJ and Sarah for allowing me to teach.

Like I said March has been crazy. With work, DT projects, class preparation and my sweet little baby, I have had no time. NO TIME!

And this month I am back with Homegrown Scrapbooks. I was on maternity leave, so I was not on the Winter Survival Program. I was so sad. It was an awesome kit. But I will be doing the Spring Survival kit. It totally rocks. I cannot wait to get my hands on it. And I will be working with some very talented ladies that have joined our Design Team; Ruth Akers, Leena Loh and Janine Langer. I am so excited to be working with these talented ladies.

This week I have been playing catch up with all the things that have gone to the wayside because I have been running around. You know, laundry, bill paying, post office. The dull stuff. LOL

Today, I am going to gut out my basement. I need to straighten it up. Normally, I would not go down there. Even if you paid me. It is a total mess. But the ball has started to roll on building/creating my new scrapbook room. My brother and hubby have begun to plan out my room. Cabinets, table, and flooring. This has been on hold for 2 years, so I need to keep them going. And the way to do that is to clean up that mess downstairs. Spring cleaning!

I am a little leery about being down there. James found a snake skin down there that is about 6 feet long. EWWWWWW!!! I cannot imagine running into that thing. I would FREAK out!

And my sweet baby boy is doing well. He just turned 3 months. Cooing more and smiling. Oh and that smile! It melts my heart. He has this half crooked smile he does now and then that makes me laugh. It is the cutest thing. I hope to be lucky enough to catch it on film soon.


Well, I better get it started. Quinn just went down for his nap and it is time to throw down and get dirty. LOL

And I will try not to be away for so long.....